Did you know that if you act crazy you get treated differently? Like you can get away with more stuff because people always use the excuse, well she's crazy, and for a crazy person, thats like you know normal. Like huh? Seriously, I started testing this out at an early age-just to get a feel for "how crazy" I could get before someone with authority considered it "wrong". Let me tell you folks, I can't remember exactly the first "bad thing" I did. I do remember being taught how to drive at 12. My older sister, me, and my cousin were bored and mom said sure take the bomb (old ass car)- she didn't care- I think she liked us out of her hair. Anyway, I was driving (i think) or my cousin was. Anyway she put her foot on the gas and we ran into a tree-a tree with a foot diamater. We totaled the car, and the cops knew my mom, and did absolutely NOTHING. No trouble nada-friggin'amazing. So a short two yrs later, at 14, my Uncle teaches me to drive a stick shift. I am not sure why everyone was in a hurry for me to grow up, but you know, I had no complaints. (I'm thinking they were training me to be Designated Driver, but thats just how I think) Anywho, shortly after I mastered that, I was taking any and every vehicle I could from my grandparents house, my house, whatever keys i could get ahold of.  My parents were gone from 630 am to after 4pm. So I would pretend like I was getting ready for school, grab the extra set of keys, and rolled out straight up pimping.. in my grandparents RV. haha! Damn. I was a bad kid. I mean I got good grades, but I honestly think my parents were tired by the time they got to me. I vaguely remember getting in trouble, but we're talking two weeks grounded? Really? Amateurs. Sheit. I got caught sneaking out the vehicles! But guess what folks, yep, at 14, it was more convenient for my mom to give me full access to her vehicle, so she wouldn't have to take off work for me. (slight hint of issues with the mom there, you picked that up too yeah) Anyway. The reason I bring up crazy is because I was and still am off the chain crazy. I've always acted on impulse, never liked authority, and did what i wanted no matter what. Do I have regrets because of that? Oh of course, damn i wish sometimes i was more obedient and poised and less crazy and while we're at it-less stubborn.(not really but it's what i tell the family, I want them to at least think I have a conscience xoxo)

Believe it or not, this topic, was brought on by the holidays. Everyone treats me with kid gloves. Its kind of awesome actually.. Nothing is expected of me haha. And when I do accomplish something, it gets talked about for years. xoxo.. What's also great about it, is somehow, because I go after whatever I want, without thinking, my family admires me most. They actually wish they had that in them.. Like Really? Yeah, you ask anyone of them they'll say they love me for my love of life and my "spirit".  "Spirit" meaning craziness.